|At Suzie's Farm, San Diego, CA|
Jonah has been communicating more and more every day. He isn't having full on conversations like I am desperate to experience, but he is gaining more expression. Earlier tonight, he told said "2 Cars" when I asked him how his day was. This response was HUGE, since they went to go see Cars 2 in his ESS program today. Later, when I placed a banana yogurt out for him at dinner, he looked it at with dismay and said "banillya yogur." I tried to tell him that vanilla yogurt was all gone because I wanted to get rid of this last banana yogurt from the old pack. Of course, he knew there was a new pack in the refrigerator, and opened the refrigerator saying "banillya yogur." I had to give in because it was so cute, and he wiggled his little butt and smiled. He does this little dance when he is really happy. It's one of those things that I am going to miss as he gets older.
I am not sure what to attribute this burst of expression to. All I can say is that he has been steadily improving with an increase in his nutrition over the last few months. He eats better and better everyday, and is willing to try new things, including vegetables. My sister brought up a good point the other night, questioning if kids stopped liking vegetables because they taste like chemicals.
While Jonah is doing well, I am a ball of anxiety. I could hardly sleep last night. Too many exciting things happening right now, I guess. Yesterday, I bought a new car, and picked up our first remedy from our homeopathic practitioner. It feels like things are going so good for us at right now, I question whether or not I should mess with it. "It" being Jonah's autism, of course.
I am very scared of the prospect of Jonah changing. He really is the cutest, sweetest, funniest, and loving little guy. He delights in the smallest details. His face lights up and he has the most contagious giggle. This kid is, hands-down, the most fun to tickle! I think I have mentioned before how innocent he is, and that is the one thing I treasure about him the most. I can't even describe how amazing he is, and I question if I should leave well enough alone.
When our homeopathic practitioner came to meet us, she asked me about my intuition as a mother and why I think CEASE Therapy will work for Jonah. I didn't know how to answer the question, much like I don't know how to describe this therapy to people, or the faith that I feel when I think about how it will change Jonah's life. I can tell you that CEASE Therapy isn't exactly what I had thought it was, but I am going to try my hardest to describe it in a manner that is not misleading. I had previously thought the therapy works because it detoxifies the patient of toxins from the vaccine, but that is not correct. It works by reversing the damage the vaccine has done to the body. The contaminant in question, is administered as a specially prepared dilution that has been formed into a pellet. The pellets are than dissolved in the mouth or water, and administered 2 times a week. The doses increase over the course of 6 weeks, and depending on the reaction or the contaminant, it may need to be administered again through another series.
One thing to look forward to throughout the therapy... side effects. Here is what we are up against: regressive behavior and exteriorizations (which I am very fearful of since Jonah had such severe eczema). Jonah may also experience symptoms of illness, as if he just received the vaccine. For those of you who don't know, exteriorizations are hot spots that form on the skin, showing a physical sign that the remedy is working. They start at the top of the body and as the damage is cleared, they move lower on the body. Of course the movement of the exteriorization occurs over several weeks. The one thing that I must have faith in at all times, is that his condition will get worse before it gets better. The negative reactions to the therapy are a sign of the body clearing the damage, and the damage has to leave the body before true repair and healing can begin.
We will be starting Jonah's therapy with a clearing of the Hep A vaccine. The two biggest physical indicators of Jonah's regression just after 2 years was his loss of appetite, and his eczema. It just so happens that skin itchiness and rash, as well as loss of appetite are listed as side effects of the Hep A vaccine. His initial reaction indicated that he was very sensitive to this vaccine and his body was not able to fully process it without it causing damage to his body first.
We begin the Hep A clearing on Monday, which will last for 6 weeks. This therapy will be a long journey, but if it works, I will have the most amazing kid on the planet, and it will all be worth it. If it doesn't work, I still have the most amazing kid on the planet.
I would like to give a giant and sincere "Thank You" to those of you who are in our lives supporting us, and those of you reading and supporting us on this mission to save Jonah.
Godspeed, my Jonah!