Wednesday, December 7, 2011

Signs, Signs, Signs

Just a quick update. Jonah is in the 2nd week of his 30C DTap clearing, and 3rd week on the Sulphur remedy. 

He said 3 new things to me yesterday: 
1. "I missed you." -His response when I asked him for a kiss after school.
2. "Are we going shopping at Costco?" -His response when I told him we were going shopping. Incidentally, we haven't been to Costco in over six months.
3. "Christmas lights are so pretty." -As we were driving home in the evening.

As of tonight, there are some big signs of movement with this remedy, and I worry about more to come. I am sure I may have mentioned before that during a clearing you can expect to see symptoms as if the child had just received a vaccine. Tonight, Jonah was insistent on having water right before bed, as if he was parched, which was uncharacteristic of him. I noticed at that point that nearly his entire face was flushed pink. He was also demonstrating a slight cough throughout the evening. No fever, and overall in a great mood, so it doesn't seem like he is getting sick. His eczema has cleared from the left arm, but the patch on his right arm is intense. The skin, as our homeopathic practitioner has said, is the body's largest organ of elimination, and it seems that his body is definitely eliminating something. I have not seen his eczema look this extreme since he was covered with it all over his entire body at 2 years old. I am relieved that this is just a small patch in comparison, but eager for it to improve soon. He has been sleeping restlessly, waking up on occasion during the night, which I know is common for kids, but Jonah normally sleeps like a rock.We have also been seeing some small exteriorizations around the eyes intermittently again. Six and half more weeks to go with the first round of DTap, and the doses will get stronger from here.

Interior Elbow, Right Arm Eczema Patch 12/6/2011
Courtesy of Imo

Thinking back to the time when he was an infant and how all his colds seemed to run together, I failed to understand then that he was sick from the vaccines. I see these symptoms now and feel disgusted with regret for not having seen it before. I remember all these little signs that would constantly come and go, or stay and turn into a cold or flu. When these little symptoms didn't turn into a cold or flu, it was curious, but the doctors say kids are always sick, so it was assumed that he was just always sick. When I think of the eczema he suffered from, I literally want to vomit. His entire tiny body was exploding at the skin. Imagine the patch pictured on the right 10x worse, and covering almost every inch of your child's body. How did I not know something more serious was wrong when the doctor told me it was just eczema? How could I have been so naive? 

Today, I must be grateful for the progress Jonah has made and look forward to putting that part of our lives behind us.    

Thursday, December 1, 2011

New Today


I need to make a correction to last blog post. I omitted that in addition to completing his first 8 week clearing for Hep A, Jonah has also completed a 4 week clearing for Hep A. We began DTap this week, and he is continuing with the Sulphur 30c. Still not to sure of what signs I should be looking for with the sulphur. Jonah has been very loving and affectionate as of late. He has been very engaged and expressive. It's been such an incredible reward to see him open up this way. There have been some extremely difficult behaviors, so I hope I don't make this sound like it's all fluffy marshmallows over here. As is the rule of parenting, the good things outweigh the bad things. I am so excited about the progress he is making. 

As a side note, I would like to ask anyone reading this blog to sign this petition:!/petition/classify-autism-epidemic-and-allocate-proportional-federal-research-funds-early-identification-and/tVyjj64g

This petition is asking for autism to be classified as an epidemic, which it is. It's also underfunded for research. It takes a couple minutes to sign up, and sign a petition. Does it really do any good? I don't know, but at least we can try to change something. If this petition receives the required amount of 25,000 signatures by 12/7, President Obama must publicly address the issue.  It currently only has 608 signatures. 

It's amazing the things that people will waste time and money on. It's amazing the things that people find important as opposed to the things that are really important. I came across this petition on the wall while cruising for new petitions to sign. I try to do this at least once every few weeks, just so I can feel like I am standing up for something. I've been trying to help campaign for it by posting it on facebook walls, and emailing it to facebook autism contacts, with very little response. It's almost as if people think they are signing the actual petition because they clicked the "like" button. Oh, the joys of social media. Literally, my friend can sell 10 sexual-magic potions on facebook, and I can't even get 10 signatures for autism on a petition. This petition needs more support, so I will try to help promote it by talking about here as well.  

Tomorrow is a new day, and I must get some sleep. Until next time. 

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

Jonah's Word Of the Week: "NO!"

Hello All!

Since the recent facebook endorsement by Autism Mothers, I feel I should take a moment to fill in the details of Jonah's progress. We have completed an 8 week clearing for Hep A and will begin a clearing for D-Tap this week. Jonah has also been prescribed a 30c remedy of Sulphur once awake to see if it will help with his eczema. The hotspots on his arms have been an issue for the last few weeks, perhaps from the last Hep A clearing. Since the sulphur remedy was given last week, it does appear that his skin is improving. I should note that Jonah did not experience the exteriorizations around the eyes as he did with the initial clearing. This is a good sign that the Hep A clearing is complete. We may need to revisit this again in the future, but for now, I will take take the improvements we have seen and run with them. It is amazing to hear Jonah say new things and use new forms of expression with increasing clarity and consistency. He is talking more and more everyday.

Eye Exteriorizations during first Hep A clearing. At least the redness and puffiness under the eyes didn't seem to provide him with much discomfort.

Jonah also turned 6 this month, which is heart breaking to me. Where did my baby go? He's turning into a little boy. I recently heard something that talked about measuring love based on the ability to lose track of time. I must really love my child, because I have no idea where the last 6 years have gone.

Monday, October 24, 2011

Bad to Good

The Santa Ana winds kicked up for a couple of weeks, bringing on migraine headaches, and downed spirits. It’s amazing, the sickness that comes from the dessert blowing all the polluted summer smog back at the cities in the form of hot winds. I feel like I am just getting back on my feet. I was so run-down for a couple of weeks, I didn’t even feel like grocery shopping and cooking (my favorite things to do). Jonah and I suffered since we were eating more items from the pantry, which means more processed crap in our diet than we are accustomed to. If anything, I have further solidified my beliefs on the importance of good nutrition to help control Jonah’s behaviors. 
Bad to Good
Jonah has started a 2nd round clearing for the Hep A vaccine. This clearing will last 4 weeks, and I have to say that the 2nd time around has not been such a charm. Regressive behaviors have become more pronounced, and even some new mild self-stimulation behaviors are peeking through the lining a bit. I can attribute some of these behaviors to food, since we were lacking freshness in our diet while I was under the weather. He’s been very defiant the last couple of weeks, and demonstrating high attention seeking behaviors. I have not witnessed these behaviors at this level in some time. On the positive side of this, he’s much smarter now, and much more capable of communicating, which is perhaps why it is so much more difficult coping with these behaviors than I remember. Once he has his mind set on something... well, he’s almost as stubborn as I am.
Of course, when he is demonstrating these regressive behaviors, I feel horrible because I have no idea what might happen at school or at the after-school program. Jonah has incredible teachers, and he absolutely adores them. We are lucky that Jonah has had such dedicated people to work with him and teach him. They are really extraordinary people who demonstrate a sincere want and desire to work with children growing up with autism. He was on fall break for the last 2 weeks, during which time, he attended extended school services while I was at work. Changes in schedule and routine can still be difficult for Jonah to deal with, and we did see a couple of incidents where Jonah demonstrated aggressive behaviors towards the staff at ESS. On a positive side to this, he is starting to acknowledge remorse for his actions without prompting. When I picked him up last Friday, he had behaved badly, and was in time-out when I walked through the door. When he saw me, he looked at me with a down face while the supervisor was informing me of the incident. I heard him say “Sorry, Mommy. No Mario. No Disneyland.” Of course, when he is being non-compliant, the first things I threaten to take away are Super Mario Brothers and Disneyland.
These are signs that, in spite of the regressive behaviors, there are underlying advancements being made. The damage caused by in-toxicity, in part to the Hep A vaccine for now, is being cleared out of his body. It’s just like when you get sick from a common cold or the flu. In order to properly recover from the virus, your symptoms get worse before you get better, right? When a cold or flu first infects your body, you don’t sense it immediately. It’s then followed by a little twinge at the back of your throat, then the achy neck, then chills and fever, then the body aches, and so on... These are symptoms caused by your immune system ‘fighting off the enemies’ -- per say. It’s interesting that I am witnessing homeopathy unfold layers of Jonah’s autistic expressions in the same manner. Things must get worse before they get better. 
It’s amazing to me that conventional medicine doesn’t seem to understand this natural process of healing. Instead, they will have you believe that you can suppress your coughs, and control your fevers, which ultimately prolongs the length of your illness by suppressing the body’s natural ability to heal itself. In the meantime, you feel like you are better because you’re chugging down cough syrup to swallow your anti-biotics, and figure “I’m not contagious because I’m not coughing.” And you go to work, and you do the grocery shopping, and you mail your DVDs back to Netflix, sharing the joy that is your cold with the rest of the unsuspecting public who will do the exact same thing because that is what your doctor tells you to do. These are the doctors that get to take their families on a free trip to Disneyland, all expenses paid by healthcare facilities and pharmaceutical reps. Conflicts of interests?
I guess these issues are at the core of human nature. The capacity and ability to acknowledge and change comes at the precipice of an event. Meaning, things must get worse before they get better. THINGS MUST GET WORSE BEFORE THEY GET BETTER! I believe the tipping point is upon us, since we are very near to seeing the worst of it.
For example, Gerson Therapy is a natural, and very highly effective way to treat cancer, but the powers that be in conventional ‘American’ medicine won’t admit it. They won’t even test it as plausible, and it has been around for decades. During these decades, cancer rates have climbed and any doctor that stumbles upon evidence of natural therapy working is discredited. According to the Cancer Prevention Society, “1 in 3 people will get cancer during our lifetimes.”  And now, at the beginning of a precipice that could impact 50% of our population by 2020, people are seeking out natural cancer therapy because they have the good instinct to recognize that whatever medicine we are being fed is not working. This could be very bad news for the various cancer organizations that raise millions of dollars to pay pharmaceutical companies to come up with new drugs that you will have to buy at astronomical prices, driving up stock prices, in hopes to save your life. If everyone finds out that you have a better chance of curing your cancer with coffee enemas and a plant based diet, who will feed the poor pharmaceutical reps and oncologists?
Cancer is just another thing the Food and Drug Adminstration, American Medical Association, and Center for Disease Control will not be honest with Americans about. They will not conduct a double-blind study of conventional cancer therapy versus natural therapy, because there is no profit to be made from it. Just as they will not conduct a double-blind study of autism occurring in children who have been vaccinated versus autism occurring in children who have not been vaccinated. There is no profit to be made from it. These organizations and medical professionals that are supposed to protect the health of the people in this country do more to damage us for the sake of money. 
When it comes to vaccines, they hide behind the statement “For the Greater Good.” For those of us that have children with autism caused by vaccinations, how do you feel about the sacrifice your child has made for the greater good? I was participating in a conversation at one of my favorite stores for local produce over the weekend, and we were on the subject of vaccines causing autism. The owner of the store asked a couple if they would vaccinate their children. The man replied, “Well my dad is a doctor, and he said the risks associated with not being vaccinated are more dangerous.” At this point, I glanced over and said, “Well, I think I would rather not have autism for the rest of my life.” Especially, if we could help it.

Wednesday, October 5, 2011


It’s been awhile since I’ve posted anything, only because I wanted to take a step back and assess the direction in which this blog will continue to grow. There has been so much developing in my life, and the perspective that I view our world with has continued to evolve in the last few months. Mission Jonah is not just about reclaiming my child from autism. This is a mission to awaken people to the prospect that what we have been taught has been misleading, and the only way we can change this is to educate ourselves and create awareness in others. 
Since starting this blog, I have been approached by several people who have questions, concerns, and want advice. While I cannot instruct people not to vaccinate their children, I can encourage them to research the issues for themselves, and hopefully direct them to resources that provide them with the answers they are looking for.
Buyer beware: you will come across very disturbing information, just as I have. You can choose to believe it, or disregard it. The proof is not in the fluffy medical studies that do nothing to disprove the links between autism and vaccinations. The proof is in the alarming number of families who can testify to the changes that occurred in their children. 
I have listened to people in the medical industry tell me flat out that there is no way there is a link between vaccinations and autism because all the studies they have seen said so. I always want to ask them “How many studies have you really read?” but I’m too afraid of stepping on toes and causing insult. You see, I’ve read as many studies as I can get my hands on, and not a single study provides a placebo group. Not one study shows the numbers of children diagnosed with autism that did not receive vaccinations, versus the number of children diagnosed with autism that did receive vaccinations. Someone told me as a rebuttal that there isn’t a large enough population of autistics to provide this statistic, like there is with cancer. Yet, we will have about half a million children in the United States become adults with autism in the next decade. I don’t know about you, but 500,000 sounds like a huge number to me. 
I am not a medical expert, but I have witnessed the damaging side effects that the medical industry persistently denies. While 500,000 people with autism may sound like a huge number to me, it is apparently not significant enough for anyone to stand up and do something about this. FIVE HUNDRED THOUSAND is just a drop in the pan to pharmaceutical companies grossing an estimated $20 billion annually from vaccines alone.   
But, we need to be looking beyond vaccinations. We need to be looking at real numbers. Forgive me if I am repeating statistics, but I just need to point out that in the 1980’s, autism affected 1 in 10,000 children. What happened? What has changed in our environment? What has changed in our lifestyles? What is causing this? What is causing the other numerous developmental disorders that are now crippling our children? According to the CDC, 1 in 7 children are affected with a developmental disorder, including autism. We need to demand to know WHY! 
Vaccines are only one of the many issues at hand with autism. Think of everything foreign from nature that has come into contact with your body. Think of every pill you have swallowed. Think of the chemicals in the lotions, creams, ointments, soaps, and perfumes you have put on your skin. Think of all the gases and fumes you have inhaled. Think of all the chemicals that were sprayed onto your fruits and vegetables, which you eat. Think of all the synthetic preservatives that go into your processed foods, which you eat. Think of all the hormones and antibiotics that are being stuffed into the livestock, which you eat. Think of the cleaning agents that meat is washed in, which isn’t washed off before you eat it. Think of the chemicals that go into the water that you drink. 
These contaminants have intoxicated our bodies. It’s as if our society is in a drug-induced coma, and we are too strung out to notice that something is wrong with our cheeseburgers. The point I will continually try to make, is that this is not just about autism. This is about every illness and disorder that is plaguing our society. People are literally dyeing. We live in a poison bubble, and no one seems to care. It’s frustrating and heartbreaking. More people need to realize that we have only been taught what someone else wants us to know. 
The pharmaceutical companies don’t want you to know that more and more people are surviving cancer with natural therapy. The pharmaceutical companies don’t want you to know that raw milk has been known to reverse allergies and cure asthma. The pharmaceutical companies don’t want you to know that their drugs are not safe for everyone to consume. And, we can’t rely on our government to inform us or protect us because the politicians don’t want you to know any of this either since it would cut into their campaign contributions. There is too much self interest and money at the top for anyone to care about the little people at the bottom. I am a little person at the bottom, and I say, “ENOUGH ALREADY!” When are we going to start demanding honest answers?
Why have we become so gullible as a society, that we take every one by their word? We are only being taught as much as someone else wants us to know. If we don’t challenge this system with questions and demand answers, we will never get to the truth.  
Here’s a truth for you. Jonah completed his first 8 week clearing for the Hep A vaccine, and guess what... The dramatic improvements he has made in the last two months far exceed any expectations I had. He is saying new things everyday, and engaging in new ways everyday. He is greatly improved, and I have faith that he will continue to improve as we move forward with CEASE Therapy. We will be begin another Hep A clearing for 4 weeks this Monday.  Jonah has enlightened me to a truth that only experience can manifest.  

Wednesday, August 24, 2011


In the past few years since Jonah's diagnosis, I have shed many tears for him: tears of fear, tears of regret, tears of stress, tears of sadness. It is next to impossible not to celebrate a "Pity Party" for one on occasion given the circumstances of being a single parent raising a child with autism. I don't like to martyr myself, but sometimes, it is a tough spot to be in.

I think I do a decent job of staying positive about Jonah's condition, finding the best ways to work with his developmental delays, and adapting to his behaviors. Ultimately, I would not change our experience. I love Jonah more than I ever could have imagined. But, there are times when I think back on his infancy, how different things were, and all the little things that I miss. 

I remember looking at him in complete 'awe'. He was so cute! He was so alert! He was so happy! He was so exceptional! He smiled for the first time when he was 3 days old. He would 'coo' in conversation with us when he was a week old. He had his first really hard laugh when he was around 6 weeks, and he was all giggles after that. He had (still has) the most kissable cheeks in existence, and if you give him kisses on the back side of the cheek (right in front of his ear) he erupts in laughter. He loved to be tickled, and tickles and cuddles are a regular request now everyday. He was such an amazing eater! He ate everything I gave him and loved it. But, the sweetest thing that I remember is the way his entire expression would light up when he saw me at the end of the day after being with his nanny. He would get so excited, squealing, wiggling, kicking, smiling. Oh, how I would crave that reaction when I was apart from him. It was that image that made it worth it to be away from him.

Some of these things started to slip away so gradually that I hardly recognized when they were gone, but I am always searching every day when I pick up Jonah. I search for that reaction, where his entire expression cheers up when he sees me. Most days it is absent, and it is very rare that I get to see it at the same level as was shown to me when he was a baby. But, today... Today when he saw me, he smiled really big, said "Hi Mommy" and reached up for me to hug him. I bent down to hug him, and he gave me two big kisses with a very hearty laugh. There it was! It has been so long since I have seen it or felt it. There is no greater feeling to be experienced in a lifetime than feeling how much your child loves you. 

Jonah is making progress more and more everyday. Today, there were tears of joy. 

Thursday, August 18, 2011

1st Grade and More

Hello All!

I do have to apologize for not providing an update sooner. I have been feeling a little run down, but enough about me.

Jonah, on the other hand, started 1st grade yesterday. This landmark event has brought on a case of "WHERE DID MY BABY GO?". I can't believe it! He is a young 1st grader, since he will not be 6 until November, but I am very anxious to see what he will accomplish this year. He has made so much progress since a year ago, it's hard to believe he is the same kid. 

Saturday, we returned to the 2nd Saturday Farm Tour at Suzie's Farm here in San Diego. Jonah remembered picking vegetables on our tour last month, so he was incredibly excited when he got to help pick a carrot from the ground and ate the whole thing, just like before. 

We have completed the first two weeks of 30c Hep A clearing without a hitch! We are now on the 200c clearing and are wrapping up week 3, on day 18. Here is a list that I just emailed to his therapist of what I have noticed thus far:

-Green colored eye boogers almost every morning
-Redness in the skin around the eye area that clears on its own, although these exteriorizations seem to be lasting a little longer now than the initial one's we saw just after starting the 30c clearing. These reddened spots have also gotten a little swollen on a couple occasions, kind of like a hive. This happened once on Saturday, Aug 7, and again last night. Our nanny did report that she saw one of these raised and reddened patches on his cheek, Sunday, Aug 8, and again on Monday, Aug 9. We have been trying to take pictures of them, but they are relatively mild , and don't look very noticeable in the pictures. I have notice that these seem to occur later in the day, and into the evening. 
-Decrease in appetite started this last weekend. I noticed it had diminished Saturday evening. He grew a ferocious appetite during the first 10 days of clearing, and now it seems to have gone back down. It has reduced to a little less than normal, but he is still eating, and he is eating good when he is hungry. 
-Increase in unprompted interactions. He has been initiating more affection and been more genuine and aggressive in seeking affection. I think it was this last Saturday that I asked him for an extra kiss at bedtime, and he reached up, wrapped his arms around my neck, and started showering me with a bunch of kisses. He has also been reciprocating "I love you" to me without prompting, which he has never really done. I wanted to cry.
-Teachers are reporting more language, and I have noticed more language as well. There has also been more clarity in some of his speech. Also, more expression. His new phrase is "Oh, Dear" when something is wrong, picked up from one of his teachers. 
-Still noticing increased eye contact, less pulling overall in his lazy eye, but also more severe pulling when it is noticeable. 
-Episodes of distant behavior, where he seems more withdrawn than I have noticed in months, which was also recognized by one of his teacher's.
-Crying and tantrums. He seems to be willing to weep a little more easily than before, over things like misplacing a toy. I can't remember him ever crying out of disappointment like this before, but more out of anger. He did have a tantrum this last Monday morning that lasted about an hour. This is the biggest tantrum that I have witnessed in a long time. I was caught slightly off guard, but there has not been another one since, and he is generally in good spirits. 
-Aggressive behavior, ie: hitting and kicking, although I don't believe it has reappeared since the 1st week and a half of the 30c clearing. 
-He did wake up with a mild cough this morning, and has also had a little bit of a runny nose. His forehead has felt a little warm to me from time to time over the last couple of days, also recognized by one of his teachers, but I have checked his temperature and it is normal. 
-His eczema has been popping up behind the knees, but I have been moisturizing these spots, as well as the inside of the elbows with raw shea butter, which seems to clear it and keep the hot spots contained. 
-There was also a bed wetting incident on the Tuesday, Aug 9th. This is something that happened as a genuine accident, but has not occurred in months. It was kind of strange, since it was more like he wet himself, and somehow, there was no pee on my bed. 
-He has also been a little more floppy with his limbs, and at times, more off balance. He bumps into walls, doorways, etc.
-I have also recognized increased distraction and silliness when he is tired. He has been getting very hyper when he is tired.

I should note, that all of the regressive behaviors we are seeing have been witnessed in the past, and they are not easily recognizable until I review my notes, since I have not seen some of these things for the last 6-12 months, or at least not with as much severity. Since these regressive behaviors are more mild than some of the things that we have seen in the past, it makes it tricky to identify when I see them arise.  I've been trying to take a lot of good notes so I will hopefully be able to identify any patterns. 

Progress!!! These are all very good signs! These are signs that the contamination from the vaccines are clearing! Regressive behaviors are a good sign. Clearing the body of these nasty, toxic imprints will mean that some old things will resurface. It will get worse before it gets better. I will say, Jonah has been a warrior. He has not shown any resistance to taking his remedy's, and seems very aware of why we are doing this. I do explain to him that I am hoping it will help his autism. He has been very happy, and seems to be very excited. I am anxious to see what continues to happen over the next few weeks!

On a side note, I think I will be switching blog sites in the near future. If anyone has any suggestions, please let me know. Google has dropped my AdSense option for this blog, which was a tool I was hoping to use to generate some funding that would help pay for Jonah's therapy. Apparently, I was NOT supposed to ask readers to click on ads. (Egg in my face.) Oh, well! Or, as Jonah would say "Oh, Dear!" On the bright side, this does give me the opportunity to explore some better platforms for our blog. My only draw to Blogger was the AdSense option, but now that it isn't there anymore, I think I will make layout a priority. I am looking at rolling the blog over to Wordpress within the next couple of weeks. I realize this is a very tricky move to make, since this is a new blog, but I hope the few followers we have will follow us to Wordpress when I am ready to make a complete transition. If anyone knows of a better blog site, I am open to suggestions!

I appreciate all of your support, from the few of you that may be reading. It truly does mean a lot to me, and to Jonah! 

Tuesday, August 2, 2011

The 1st Day of the Rest of Our Lives

Jonah at 4 months

Jonah was given his first remedy last night just before bed time. I had to work, so I was not home to administer the remedy, but it was left in the hands of Jonah's highly trusted sitter/nanny with explicit instructions. Our Homeopath has decided his first clearing should be for the Hepatitis A Vaccine, as was stated in the last blog. The Hep A clearing will last 6 weeks. We will start with the 30c dose for the first two weeks, and administer every Monday and Thursday. My eyes and ears are wide open, and eager to observe the changes. 

I have been having increased anxiety over the last week or two. I have been researching vaccinations, Post Vaccination Syndrome, CEASE Therapy and homeopathy for months, and now we are finally beginning. It is a very exciting time. I am so grateful for the opportunity to do this for my son. 

Our nanny reported to me last night shortly after administering the remedy for the first time, redness showed up in the skin around the eyes for about 10 minutes, and then cleared away on its own. This is not the kind of therapy that will show monumental changes in Jonah over night, but I think the reaction that was observed was a good sign. I did pay special attention to the eye area all day, just in case. 

Jonah has had a bit of a lazy eye on the left side, but I have been at odds with his opthamologist about it. The opthamologist has been teetering on suggesting surgery for the last couple of years, and I have been reluctant to settle on surgery as a solution because it seems like the wandering eye may be attributed to a compromise in his visual sensory processing. This is very typical with autism, which is why it is often observed that they look at things indirectly. Because the visual sensory processing is compromised, they can actually see things better when they observe their surroundings with their eyes posed in different directions or gestures than a normal person would.  I did notice today that his one-on-one eye contact was much stronger, and that his wandering eye was much more centered and focused today. He has always had days where these things were stronger, so I don't want to read into it too much yet as a positive sign of change. Only time can tell...

His sleep and appetite were normal today. He woke up around 6:30 this morning, super happy with ample energy. He has been wanting to play more Super Mario on the Wii again, which I am trying to limit to 30 minutes a day. It's just a matter of redirecting when he asks for it. His new favorite thing to eat is mushrooms. It's been great. I can pretty much saute mushrooms with just about anything and he will eat it. So tonight, we had sauteed mushrooms and zucchini with pasta. He loved the zucchini, and I gave him extra mushrooms halfway through dinner. When he was all done, I asked him if he wanted more mushrooms or if he was ready for his ice cream sandwich. He said "I want more mushrooms, please." I almost cried. It's so incredible watching him eat these amazing foods that are good for him.  It's so important for him as well. I strongly believe that improved nutrition has made a huge contribution to all the progress we have seen this year. 

Now, I just have to be patient, and see what other improvements may unfold over the next few weeks.

Thursday, July 28, 2011

The Most Amazing Kid On the Planet!

At Suzie's Farm, San Diego, CA

Jonah has been communicating more and more every day. He isn't having full on conversations like I am desperate to experience, but he is gaining more expression. Earlier tonight, he told said "2 Cars" when I asked him how his day was. This response was HUGE, since they went to go see Cars 2 in his ESS program today. Later, when I placed a banana yogurt out for him at dinner, he looked it at with dismay and said "banillya yogur." I tried to tell him that vanilla yogurt was all gone because I wanted to get rid of this last banana yogurt from the old pack. Of course, he knew there was a new pack in the refrigerator, and opened the refrigerator saying "banillya yogur." I had to give in because it was so cute, and he wiggled his little butt and smiled. He does this little dance when he is really happy. It's one of those things that I am going to miss as he gets older.

I am not sure what to attribute this burst of expression to. All I can say is that he has been steadily improving with an increase in his nutrition over the last few months. He eats better and better everyday, and is willing to try new things, including vegetables. My sister brought up a good point the other night, questioning if kids stopped liking vegetables because they taste like chemicals.  

While Jonah is doing well, I am a ball of anxiety. I could hardly sleep last night. Too many exciting things happening right now, I guess. Yesterday, I bought a new car, and picked up our first remedy from our homeopathic practitioner. It feels like things are going so good for us at right now, I question whether or not I should mess with it. "It" being Jonah's autism, of course.

I am very scared of the prospect of Jonah changing. He really is the cutest, sweetest, funniest, and loving little guy. He delights in the smallest details. His face lights up and he has the most contagious giggle. This kid is, hands-down, the most fun to tickle! I think I have mentioned before how innocent he is, and that is the one thing I treasure about him the most. I can't even describe how amazing he is, and I question if I should leave well enough alone.

When our homeopathic practitioner came to meet us, she asked me about my intuition as a mother and why I think CEASE Therapy will work for Jonah. I didn't know how to answer the question, much like I don't know how to describe this therapy to people, or the faith that I feel when I think about how it will change Jonah's life. I can tell you that CEASE Therapy isn't exactly what I had thought it was, but I am going to try my hardest to describe it in a manner that is not misleading. I had previously thought the therapy works because it detoxifies the patient of toxins from the vaccine, but that is not correct. It works by reversing the damage the vaccine has done to the body. The contaminant in question, is administered as a specially prepared dilution that has been formed into a pellet. The pellets are than dissolved in the mouth or water, and administered 2 times a week. The doses increase over the course of 6 weeks, and depending on the reaction or the contaminant, it may need to be administered again through another series.

One thing to look forward to throughout the therapy... side effects. Here is what we are up against: regressive behavior and exteriorizations (which I am very fearful of since Jonah had such severe eczema). Jonah may also experience symptoms of illness, as if he just received the vaccine.  For those of you who don't know, exteriorizations are hot spots that form on the skin, showing a physical sign that the remedy is working. They start at the top of the body and as the damage is cleared, they move lower on the body. Of course the movement of the exteriorization occurs over several weeks. The one thing that I must have faith in at all times, is that his condition will get worse before it gets better. The negative reactions to the therapy are a sign of the body clearing the damage, and the damage has to leave the body before true repair and healing can begin.

We will be starting Jonah's therapy with a clearing of the Hep A vaccine. The two biggest physical indicators of Jonah's regression just after 2 years was his loss of appetite, and his eczema. It just so happens that skin itchiness and rash, as well as loss of appetite are listed as side effects of the Hep A vaccine. His initial reaction indicated that he was very sensitive to this vaccine and his body was not able to fully process it without it causing damage to his body first. 

We begin the Hep A clearing on Monday, which will last for 6 weeks. This therapy will be a long journey, but if it works, I will have the most amazing kid on the planet, and it will all be worth it. If it doesn't work, I still have the most amazing kid on the planet. 

I would like to give a giant and sincere "Thank You" to those of you who are in our lives supporting us, and those of you reading and supporting us on this mission to save Jonah. 

Godspeed, my Jonah!

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

CEASE Update

We met with our practitioner yesterday. I am anxiously waiting to hear back from her today. I'll be working on the next blog article and doing some more research. It seems homeopathy is a little magical, but it works. Let's hope it works for Jonah. 

I will fill you in on more details as soon as I can.

Tuesday, July 26, 2011


We meet with our CEASE Therapy practitioner in the morning (7/26)! I am a ball of excitement and anxiety. I'm not sure if I will even be able to sleep. I feel like I should be hurrying up to wait. And, it may be a long wait...

I do want to inform everyone reading our blog of how CEASE Therapy works, but I think it is first important to discuss the reasons for such a drastic therapy in the first place. I would like to start with my personal journey of coming to this point over the last year, and why I am so convinced that Jonah's Autism is from Post Vaccination Syndrome. 

I think I have already stated that I adamantly disbelieved that vaccines were the cause of autism until earlier this year. I am also guilty of not being much of an advocate in the autism community until recently. I did not want to dissociate any of Jonah's behaviors, and I've been reluctant to settle on the idea that this will be my son's life. 

Shortly after Thanksgiving last year, 2010, I began an 8 week dietary transition and became a vegan. I thought it would be something I would try out for a few months, and dive right back into a plate of carnitas. I was motivated by the ambition of living a more sustainable lifetstyle. I knew that I could not preach about the importance of sustainability without making life choices that set an example. After the first couple months passed, I realized that I personally felt better than ever, and that Jonah seemed to be feeling better than ever. He was once the pickiest eater, and now he tries almost everything I put in front of him. Jonah still eats meat, but I removed almost all processed foods from his diet, and I prepare his favorites organically. He has shown tremendous improvements in his behavior, speech, and demeanor over the last 6 months. As I began to witness these benefits to my new lifestyle, I began researching more about nutrition, and learning the importance of living as naturally as possible. 

We are a natural species, made of this earth, and for the past few generations, we have been filling our bodies with things that do not occur in nature. These things become the ingredients that determine our composition. They become our blood, our bones, our organs, our skin. These foreign entities cause adverse physical health side effects that we are very aware of such as cancer, diabetes, heart disease, asthma, allergies, obesity, etc... We come into contact with these chemicals through our environment; pollutants from the air we breathe, the food we eat, the surfaces we touch, the medicine we ingest. These chemicals remain in the body, and transfer to our offspring, so our children have now inherited these toxic chemicals, on top of chemicals that they will come in contact with throughout their life time. See

Remember, these chemicals do not clear from the body naturally or completely, because our bodies can not identify them properly or understand them, so they build up. Now think of how delicate the brain is, how delicate brain function is, the process of neurons firing off, controlling your thoughts, your movements, your complete being. Now throw a bunch of boulders into that and guess what kind of mess you end up with. Is it any wonder that the CDC is reporting 1 in 7 children are being diagnosed with a developmental disability? 

It should be stated that not every child who receives vaccinations will develop a developmental disability such as autism. But parents need to be conscious consumers when deciding when and what to vaccinate our children. That's right! I said consumer, because vaccines are a commodity. They are sold to us, we pay for them, and most of us do not know what they are for or why our children need them. 

Vaccines are not the only causative factor associated with a potential risk for autism. One of the most shocking things I've learned about was the toxicity levels of microwaving water in a baby bottle to mix with the baby formula. I have also heard of a recent study (which I have not had a chance to look up yet) that suggests an increase in autism if the mother was on anti-depressants. One of the patients that Dr. Smits discusses in his book was exposed to Flonase during gestation, which turned out to be a causative factor for his autism. The mother's mental well being can also be a causative factor, as it leaves an impression on the child.  

I have found more answers in my research of homeopathy and natural medicine than I have from Western medicine. One of the convincing cases for me was documented by Dr. Smitsy. I had a moment identifying with the story of another little boy that had me crying for hours, where Dr. Smits is able to outline the child's medical history, associate the child's illnesses conjunctively with the child's vaccinations, up to the point of his autism diagnosis. Just before this child was diagnosed, he stopped eating (the body's last line of defense for detoxification is fasting, which is why we loose our appetites when we are ill) and broke out in severe eczema (skin conditions such as these are a sign of severe internal toxicity). In addition to other similarities, my son also stopped eating, and broke out in severe eczema all over his entire body just after the age of 2. He ate everything as a baby, and it broke my heart to see him go through that. The eczema was so severe, it blistered, pimpled, and itched all over his entire body. His skin was so sensitive, if he scratched it, it would rip open. I kept calling the doctor, and calling the doctor, and appointment after appointment after appointment, the only explanation I received was that eczema was common, and toddlers are picky eaters.  He went from being age appropriate at his 2 year evaluations, to high risk for autism at 2.5 years, to PDD-NOS at 3 years. He slipped away right in front of me, and I didn't even see it. 

When I look back at his medical history, Jonah did not suffer from as many of the associative infections and illnesses that are attributed to vaccinations, but I have been able to establish a pattern that led up to his 2-year vaccine series, which was ultimately too much for his little body to handle. After the 2-year vaccine, that's when it all fell apart.

The thing about the controversy of vaccines is, it isn't just the mercury. There are many more chemicals going into these things than methyl-mercury. The following website provides a Vaccine Ingredients Calculator, which exposes all kinds of interesting ingredients; Not to mention, one of the reasons I was reassured to give my son vaccinations is because I found a pediatrician that used the newer batches of vaccines which lacked the methyl-mercury. 

The CEASE Therapy will begin by detoxifying Jonah's body of the contaminants from vaccinations that may have caused Jonah's autism. If I am right in my beliefs and instincts, his progress with the therapy will prove it, which is why it is so important for me to document our experience and share it. I can not wait to share more info from our meeting and provide a clear explanation of how it works. 

Until then...

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

I'm Looking For Feedback

I'm looking for feedback here. I'm not sure how many people this blog is reaching or will reach, but I'm hoping to learn something from an opposing or challenging view point. Right now I feel pretty defeated by a corrupt system. Please read and share with people you know. 

We have our intake interview with the CEASE Therapist next Tuesday, and will likely begin treatment the following week. My emotions are swelling in circles with anticipation. I'm nervous, excited, scared, happy, anxious, scared. Did I mention I was scared. 

Jonah has been amazing the last couple of weeks. He is very happy, as if he knows that we are about to do something to try and help him. I've talked to him about the therapy, but how much he understands is unclear. I will say that he is talking up a storm, and enjoying every moment of every day. He has been very interactive and affectionate with me. 

We had his hearing examined yesterday. This was a follow up to some concerns we had when he was tested as an infant. To make a long story short, the hearing in his right ear is relatively normal while hearing in the left ear has been slightly compromised. One of the symptoms associated with 18Q Syndrome is very small ear canals, which is disrupting the travel of sound to Jonah's ear drum.  It appears he has been getting by with relatively normal hearing, but we will follow up and consider hearing aids as an option. Perhaps it will help to clear his pronunciation, which would be terribly exciting!

I had a brief encounter in the waiting room for the hearing test yesterday with the mother of a 22 month old boy. She was talking about ABA Therapy (Applied Behavioral Analysis), which I am familiar with since Jonah has been working with ABA therapists for 3 years. Of course I interrupted her for a moment to try and have a conversation with her about it.  She didn’t seem too interested in talking to me once she realized that the therapy had failed to cure Jonah’s autism. I understand this since it was my early hopes in Jonah’s diagnosis process that he would just “grow out of it”  and that the ABA therapy would help him to do that. 
Her off-putting behavior didn’t deter me from attempting to continue a conversation with her a few moments later, as I am compelled to share the information on CEASE Therapy with other parents of children with autism and let them decide. Perhaps, if anything, they will question what they have been told by the medical industry just as I have.  I asked her a few casual questions associated with autism, and then asked “Was your son vaccinated?” She was hesitant to respond, “Yes, but I think the medical industry has disproved that vaccinations are causing autism.” 
I would like to clarify with anyone who questions the association of vaccinations with autism just why a parent like me is outraged by this medical statement. My response to her was “They haven’t disproved anything. You should look into it.” Six months ago, I would have given someone the same response. Six months ago, I was mislead to believe the same thing. But then, I looked into it. 

You should look into it! Here is a link to a summarized report published in 2010 that disproves the link between autism and vaccines: . If you interpret it differently, perhaps you can show me where that damning evidence is. The study summarizes that they questioned parents from a control group of 256 ASD children and 752 normal children.  At no point does the study produce evidence that vaccines did not cause the autism in the 256 ASD children. At no point does the study provide alternative causative factors for the 256 ASD children. 
These studies are very cleverly worded to be convincing. They are intended not to be read by the general public and not to be understood by the general public. These reports are published with a headline that reads “Yet Another Report Disproves the Link Between Vaccines and Autism,” but what the reports are really showing is an unfounded link between vaccines and autism because they don't want you to find one. 

We need to be listening to the testimony of the parents that are watching their children regress.  We need to look for a common thread. The CDC and the medical industry won't fund this study because they don't want people to find the common thread. 

Anyone who reads this should research "The Simpsonwood Transcripts." 
The business of vaccines is a $20 billion a year industry. What would you do for $20 billion? Perhaps we should ask Bill Gates? And, then ask him to produce his children's immunization records.

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

Mr. Jones

Ocean Beach, California 5/2011
Jonah has been very verbal the last 5 days, which has been extremely exciting. He is demonstrating a level of expression that I have never been able to experience with him, at least not for a consistent length of time. In the past, his strength of language would vary day by day, one day being strong, the next 10 days extremely garbled and only speaking with prompting, and another strong day, back to difficult again, and so on, and so on. In the last 5 days, he has been singing more songs, and demonstrating age appropriate pretend play. The majority of his speech is clearer, and the words and phrases he is confident with are coming out of his mouth crystal clear. This morning, when I was dropping him off at his summer camp, he held up his pug puppy beanie baby to the water fountain in front of the school and said "Puppy, Look at the waterfall." I couldn't believe it!

It is sometimes scary to think about how different Jonah might be if he weren't autistic. It's hard to describe how unique and amazing his personality is (as said by every mother). He has a very special innocence that has been preserved. I believe that when the autism took over around the age of 2, his mental/psychological development was stunted, leaving him with an immature mode of expression. He is now maturing and expressing himself similarly to a 3-4 year old.  His pronunciation is difficult to understand, but inappropriate behaviors and tantrums have diminished almost completely. He has always been very cuddly and affectionate, and is always giggling over something.

Jonah has made tremendous advancements over the last year, most significantly in the last 6 months which has been one of the major motivators for seeking out a homeopathic therapy for him. I drastically changed our diets at the end of last year, and noticed a significant improvement in his development and overall demeanor in a very short period of time. It was at this point that I came to the realization that something unnatural had occurred in my child's body, and if I could recognize such a dramatic change in him just by improving his nutritional intake, then restoring a natural balance in him might further relieve some of his autistic expressions.  

With Jonah, there are times when the autistic expressions are very prominent, and times when he seems like a completely normal little boy. This is why he received the PDD-NOS diagnosis versus the ASD diagnosis. It has been a puzzle in our family, because there are times when he does not fit into any of the categories associated with ASD. During the first year after his diagnosis, I was hoping that this would be something he would just grow out of. It was so difficult to tell when he was at such a young age what could be deemed as a significant developmental delay. I second guessed the diagnosis for awhile, and researched various disorders, hoping one might have the answers we were looking for. 

We have not started the CEASE Therapy yet, but I'm hoping to begin next month (August). I want to make sure that I am starting the therapy when it will be right for Jonah, so that it does not disrupt too much of his routine. In some ways perhaps it is better that I am taking the time to thoroughly investigate and prepare his medical history and my medical history, so we have as much information as possible when we start the therapy. I was talking to a friend today about it, and I had the same hope and realization that I confidently feel every time I talk about it: That within the next few years, Jonah will be a completely different child.

Monday, July 11, 2011

How did we get here?

While this blog is about a mission to recover my son from Autism, it is also a blog that seeks overall change and reform for the sake of the human condition.  To begin this mission of realization, one must first embrace that everything is connected. 
I am a huge advocate for SUSTAINABILITY. SUSTAINABILITY is a word I speak of or think about at least 20 times a day; or rather, I speak of and think about how UNSUSTAINABLE the human condition has become at least 20 times a day. Our economy is UNSUSTAINABLE, our environment is UNSUSTAINABLE, our agricultural system is UNSUSTAINABLE, our, food is UNSUSTAINABLE, our education system is UNSUSTAINABLE, our health care is UNSUSTAINABLE, which makes human kind UNSUSTAINABLE. 
The biggest issues I hope to help inform you readers on are health, food, agriculture, and education. These are the things that have directly affected me as a mother. I ask myself these questions daily: “How can I get this message across? How can I make a difference? How can I prevent this from happening to other children? How can I prevent this from happening to other families?”
You must realize that Jonah’s autism does not only have an impact on him. Jonah doesn’t know how to be anything else. Myself, on the other hand, now that is a different story. My experience as a parent has been nothing like anything I imagined. The same could be said for everyone who knows and loves my son, as his condition does often present some challenges. While I accept my son and his condition, it is hard for me not to feel guilt and not to feel remorse. I was guilty of lacking in education. I did not know what has been happening in agriculture. I did not know what has been happening to our food. I did not know what has been happening in our health care system. I sometimes feel like I was robbed of my child, but I have no one to blame but myself for not educating myself further. 
I believe that Jonah’s autism is directly associated with intoxication from vaccinations.  I believe that he was more inclined to the development of his autism based on his genetic disorder. There is a possibility that he may have developed autism had I denied vaccinations (which I seriously contemplated prior to his birth) based on other environmental contaminants. At the time of his birth, I was informed by the pediatrician that there has been no medical evidence to support that vaccinations are causing autism, and any speculation associated with that theory suggested that mercury in the vaccines would be the responsible chemical. This was in 2005, and Dr. Andrew Wakefield who suggested that the mercury in the MMR vaccine was responsible for autism has since been discredited and banned from practicing medicine.  
So, Jonah received his vaccines, as I was instructed was the best thing I could do for him. At day 2, Jonah received his first vaccine, prior to coming home from the hospital. This vaccine was a Hepatitis B injection. The following are the precautions for the vaccine, that are not openly disclosed prior to administering the injection, as found at :
PRECAUTIONS: Before getting hepatitis B vaccine, tell your doctor or pharmacist if you are allergic to it; or to yeast; or other vaccines; or if you have any other allergies. Some vials and prefilled syringes may use latex rubber stoppers or plungers. Tell your doctor if you are allergic to latex. This product may contain inactive ingredients, which can cause allergic reactions or other problems. Talk to your pharmacist for more details. Before using this medication, tell your doctor or pharmacist your medical history, especially of: bleeding problems (such as hemophilia, low platelets, anticoagulant treatment), current illness with fever. If you are a hemodialysis patient, you may not respond as well to the vaccine and will need to have hepatitis B antibody levels checked yearly. If antibodies drop too low over time, you may be given another dose of vaccine (often called a booster shot).If you have decreased immune function from other medications (see also Drug Interactions) or other illness (such as HIV, leukemia, lymphoma, other cancer), your body may not make enough antibodies to protect you from hepatitis B infection. Antibody levels may be checked after the vaccine series. The elderly may not make as many antibodies to the vaccine. Talk to your doctor for more details. During pregnancy, this medication should be used only when clearly needed. Discuss the risks and benefits with your doctor. It is unknown whether this drug passes into breast milk. Consult your doctor before breast-feeding.
Does this sound like something you would willingly put in to your child’s blood stream? How are we supposed to know at the ripe old age of 48 hours if the child is allergic to latex, or if they have a medical history of bleeding, or if they are allergic to yeast and other vaccines? I would especially like to highlight for you the text that reads “During pregnancy, this medication should be used only when clearly needed. Discuss the risks and benefits with your doctor. It is unknown whether this drug passes into breast milk. Consult your doctor before breast-feeding.”  So... It may be unsafe to the fetus during gestation and unsafe if passed through breast milk, but okay to administer directly into the body of a newborn baby? 
There are, in fact, 11 vaccines administered to the average child in the first 24 months of life. I will be all to happy to inform you of the precautions for each vaccine in preparation to start CEASE Therapy. In order to understand CEASE Therapy and how it is working for children with autism, you must understand what we are up against. It is my mission to recover Jonah from his autism. It is my mission to help other families recover their children from autism, and to prevent this diagnosis for other children. I hope you are reading.

Thursday, June 30, 2011


Dear Family and Friends:

For those of you who don't know him, this is my Jonah. At 5 years old, he stands at 43 inches, a whopping 40 pounds, with blazing blonde hair, giant blue eyes, and a mischievous giggle.  He is my heart, my soul, and my every breath, all wrapped up in another being that I can't control. If only I controlled it, he wouldn't be autistic.

Jonah's autism diagnosis came when he was 3 years old. He was actually diagnosed with PDD-NOS (Pervasive Developmental Disorder - Not Otherwise Specified), but it is treated like autism. The diagnosis process, and early intervention began when he was 2 and a half, almost exactly 3 years ago. He is considered to be high-functioning, or mild to moderate. He is very smart, and I am proud to report that he is already learning to read, write, and use basic arithmetic. 

Jonah also has a very rare genetic disorder known as 18Q Deletion Syndrome. This essentially means that there is a deletion on the long leg of his 18th chromosome, which was diagnosed shortly after his birth. The symptoms and side effects associated with 18Q Deletion Syndrome can vary, depending on the size of the deletion. In Jonah's case, the deletion is so miniscule, it does not appear to have impacted him physically. However, autism is often linked to children with 18Q Syndrome, which brings us to where we are now.

As a parent, I never could have imagined this. This is the stuff you don't sign up for. This is the stuff that is typed in fine Sanskrit at the bottom of the celestial contract you sign with the universe upon delivering a child. Had I known what I suspect now, I would have done so many things differently. I would do anything to reverse my son's autism. Please do not think that I do not accept him for who he is now, but if I can make anything just the tiniest bit better for him, I will do it. I can not go back and change the mistakes that I believe caused his autism, but I am moving forward to reverse the damage that has been done to him.

While the medical industry reports that they have found no evidence linking vaccinations to autism, they have yet to show us proof that vaccinations irrefutably do not cause autism. The truth is, no one knows for sure, therefore, we can not rule out any options. I was one of those people who adamantly denied a link between vaccinations and autism, until earlier this year when I read "Autism, Beyond Despair: Homeopathy Has the Answers" by Dr. Tinus Smits, MD and Tim Owens.  Dr. Smits developed a homeopathic therapy that he has administered to treat and reverse autism. CEASE Therapy (Complete Elimination of Autism Spectrum Expression) clears the body of toxins, primarily from vaccinations that may be causative factors to a child's autism. Since autism is such a complex disorder, it is my understanding that what might work for one child, may not work for another to the same extent. Regardless, in the cases of autism that Dr. Smits worked with, he was able to achieve significant improvement in the child's condition.

It should be noted, that I believe there are several causative factors in addition to vaccinations that could be linked to autism, and if we continue abusing our bodies by exposing ourselves and our children to toxins that are not natural to the human body, we will soon be at pandemic levels of diagnosis of developmental disability. These are things that are building generationally, which is why the severity of developmental disorders is increasing.  In the 80's and 90's, all the kids had ADD. Now in the new millennium, all the kids have autism. What's next? When will we as a society demand answers? Will it be when the statistics are reversed and 1 in 90 children are being diagnosed "normal"? Unfortunately, for many people, it will be when their children are diagnosed, just as mine was.

I am not a scientist, or a doctor, but I have lived with this condition for the last three years, and I can tell you what I have witnessed first hand with Jonah. I am also capable of simple math, and if you add the simple facts together, there is no way to deny that something unnatural is occurring in our children. The first case of autism was reported in 1943, and it has grown unlike anything else we have ever seen over the last 68 years. In fact, I would like to challenge the medical industry to show us another condition that has had a stronger global impact. This isn't just about autism, but rather an increasingly unnatural occurrence of developmental disorders that our children are at risk of.

And, here I stand, angry and on a mission to tackle what I believe has caused Jonah's autism. It is the most painful thing a parent could imagine: to watch your child disappear right in front of you. To watch his words disappear, to watch his expression disappear, to watch his eyes disappear.  I am blessed that Jonah's condition is not as severe as others. I am grateful that he is a very loving, optimistic, affectionate and happy child. While we have our challenging moments, Jonah is a very good boy. We have many positive things on our side as we embark on this mission.

I am in preparation mode to begin CEASE Therapy for Jonah this summer. It is my mission to share with any one who wants to listen (or read) as we go through this journey, in hopes that it may help other children trapped in this condition. I can only hope and pray for support from everyone I know, and everyone you know. Please share this blog, pass it along. We need all the support we can get.